Additionally, it confirms the biological relationship with me and my birth father, who I never expected to hear from or see again...
So you can imagine my shock when I read that my birth father would like to meet me as soon as possible, anytime and anywhere. The social worker included the letter he wrote me, that was translated to English for me to read.
As I am reaching to accept the humility of my birth father's words, I am also thinking about the time my adoptive father apologized to me for the years of abuse.
I'll let my father speak for himself on this occasion. Here is the letter, followed by the translation:
I don’t think I deserve to write to you, but I really want to tell you about my feelings as your father through this letter. I met with your mother when I was only 20 years old, and we had you and your older sister. But we became so bad-off and making it worse, I was called into the military. We were in such the wretched circumstances that we couldn’t raise you and put you up for adoption.
Your mom and I experienced discord on religion issue. Finally, we agreed to get divorced in 1996. I feel so sad and mournful, thinking about you and whenever I drink, I’ve cried all day.
I’ve never forgotten you even for a moment from that day to this. Thank you for just being there. On the day I heard about you from Holt, I cried all night.
I would really want to run to you at once, but I heard some administrative procedures should be done first, so I’m waiting for it.
And I really want to say thank you to your adoptive parents for raising you so well. I really want to do everything I couldn’t do for you when we meet. I miss you. I miss you so much.
I look forward to meeting you.
From your father who don’t deserve to be called as your father.